Helen did not speak.
Everyone else seemed to understand before she did.
Officer Ramirez stopped in the kitchen doorway.
Robert went completely still.
Dylan stood near the living room with his hands hanging uselessly at his sides.
Helen looked from one face to another.
Then back to her son.
“What did you say?”
Dylan swallowed.
“I used your information.”
“What information?”
“Your name. Social Security number.”
Helen blinked.
“How do you know my Social Security number?”
“I found it.”
“Where?”
“In your desk.”
The room seemed unbearably bright.
Helen thought of the locked drawer in the small desk upstairs.
Tax documents.
Insurance papers.
Old bank records.
“Found it.”
Dylan’s mouth trembled.
“I knew where you kept the key.”
Helen stepped backward.
Robert moved as if to steady her.
She held up a hand.
“Don’t.”
He stopped.
Helen stared at Dylan.
“How much?”
Dylan’s eyes dropped.
“Mom—”
“How much did you borrow in my name?”
“Twenty-five hundred.”
Helen felt herself become very calm.
More calm than she had been while strangers threatened her from the porch.
“What kind of loan?”
“Online.”
“Which company?”
“I don’t remember the full name.”
Officer Ramirez interrupted.
“We’ll need to identify it.”
Dylan nodded quickly.
“I can find it.”
Helen looked at him.
“When?”
“About two months ago.”
She remembered.
Two months ago Dylan had become strangely attentive for several days.
He cooked dinner once.
He repaired the loose cabinet hinge without being asked.
He had even brought her flowers from the grocery store.
Helen had been so touched she photographed them.
The picture was still on her phone.
A yellow bouquet.
Two months ago.
“Did you use my email?”
Dylan nodded.
“A new one. Not yours.”
“My bank account?”
“No.”
“My address?”
Another nod.
“Were letters sent here?”
“I selected paperless statements.”
Helen almost admired the efficiency.
That thought horrified her.
He had planned concealment.
This was not panic.
Not one drunken decision.
He had taken her identity, created an account, hidden the paperwork, and borrowed money he had no intention of telling her about.
Robert’s voice was dangerously quiet.
“You committed identity theft against your mother.”
Dylan flinched.
“I was going to pay it.”
“With what?”
“I thought I’d win it back.”
Helen laughed.
No one else did.
The sound came out brittle and strange.
“You thought you would win back stolen money by gambling borrowed money.”
Dylan covered his face.
“I know how it sounds.”
“No,” Helen said. “I don’t think you do.”
He lowered his hands.
“You think everything started last night.”
Helen pointed toward him.
“But last night was only the first thing I couldn’t explain away.”
Dylan’s eyes filled.
Helen felt nothing comforting in response.
Not yet.
Officer Ramirez asked, “Do you want to sit down?”
“No.”
“Helen,” Robert said.
“No.”
She needed to stand.
Sitting felt too close to collapsing.
She turned toward the counter and saw the chef’s knife still lying there.
She slid it into the sink.
The metal struck porcelain with a sharp sound.
Then she turned back.
“Did you take anything else?”
Dylan hesitated.
That hesitation answered before he did.
“What else?”
“Your credit card.”
Helen closed her eyes.
“Which one?”
“The blue one.”
She knew immediately.
The card she rarely used.
It stayed in a desk organizer with emergency documents.
“How much?”
“About eight hundred.”
Robert muttered, “God.”
Helen opened her eyes.
“You said thirty-eight hundred.”
“That’s what I owe Ray.”
“So that number did not include what you stole from me.”
“No.”
“Or what you borrowed in my name.”
“No.”
“Or the cards.”
“No.”
“How much do you actually owe?”
Dylan looked at the floor.
“Close to nine.”
“Nine thousand?”
He nodded.
“And twelve thousand lost gambling.”
“Over time.”
Helen stared at him.
The distinction sounded almost absurd.
Over time.
As though spreading destruction across months made it gentler.
Officer Ramirez motioned to the kitchen table.
“I think we should sit and document all of this.”
Helen finally sat.
Dylan remained standing until Ramirez told him to take the chair farthest from his mother.
He obeyed.
That obedience was new.
Maybe fear had finally exhausted his instinct to argue.
Robert took the last chair.
Ramirez opened her notebook again.
“Dylan, I need you to understand something. I’m not your attorney. You’re making statements about conduct that may be criminal.”
Dylan nodded.
“If you want legal advice before answering further questions about the loan and credit card, that is your right.”
Robert looked at him.
“Take it.”
Dylan’s eyes moved to Helen.
She gave him nothing.
“What happens if I don’t?”
Ramirez answered carefully.
“I’m not going to advise you whether to speak.”
Dylan inhaled.
Then looked at his mother again.
“I’ll tell you.”
Robert leaned back.
Helen studied her son.
“Why?”
Dylan wiped his palms against his jeans.
“Because I’m tired.”
She almost said, So am I.
But she stayed quiet.
“I’m tired of remembering which lie I told who.”
Helen felt a strange pressure behind her ribs.
Dylan continued.
“The loan was mine. I used Mom’s information. I used her card without permission. The money from Dad went to Ray.”
Robert asked, “All two hundred?”
“Yes.”
“And you told me it was for rent.”
“I know.”
“You don’t pay rent.”
“I know.”
The simplicity of the admission seemed to wound Robert more than an argument would have.
Dylan looked at Helen.
“The flowers were bought on your card too.”
Helen’s face changed before she could stop it.
Dylan noticed.
“Oh,” he whispered.
The room became silent.
Helen remembered arranging the yellow flowers in the glass vase Robert’s mother had given them as a wedding gift.
She had teased Dylan for choosing daisies because he used to pick them for her as a child.
He had smiled and kissed her forehead.
Bought on her stolen card.
Helen looked down at the tablecloth.
She did not cry.
That seemed worse.
Dylan began to.
“I’m sorry.”
She shook her head.
“Stop saying it for now.”
His shoulders tightened.
“I mean it.”
“I believe that you feel sorry right now.”
He stared at her.
“That isn’t the same as repairing anything.”
Dylan lowered his eyes.
Officer Ramirez continued taking notes.
A radio crackled on her shoulder.
She pressed a button.
“Go ahead.”
A voice reported that the second man had not yet been found.
Ray, however, was detained.
A search had revealed a folding knife and a small notebook containing names and dollar amounts.
Dylan looked sick.
Ramirez asked him, “Would your name be in that notebook?”
“Probably.”
“Your mother’s?”
“I don’t know.”
Helen’s head snapped toward him.
“What does that mean?”
“Ray knew where I lived. He knew you owned the house.”
“How?”
Dylan looked ashamed.
“I told him.”
Robert slammed his palm flat on the table, not hard enough to make the dishes jump this time.
“You gave a loan shark information about your mother?”
“I wasn’t giving him information. We were talking.”
“You told a man you owed money to who owned the house where you lived.”
“I didn’t know it would turn into this.”
Robert stood.
“That sentence may be the story of your entire adult life.”
“Robert,” Helen said.
He looked at her.
“Sit down.”
His jaw flexed.
Then he sat.
Helen turned to Dylan.
“What did Ray think would happen if you didn’t pay?”
“He said he’d collect.”
“What does that mean?”
“I don’t know.”
Helen nearly shouted.
Instead, she stopped.
“No. We’re finished with those three words.”
Dylan looked at her.
“You may not know exactly what he planned. But you know what you feared.”
He swallowed.
“I thought they might take the car.”
“The car is mine.”
“I know.”
“Of course.”
“I thought maybe they’d scare me. Break something.”
“In my house?”
Dylan closed his eyes.
“Yes.”
Helen pressed her lips together.
Officer Ramirez asked, “Did Ray ever explicitly threaten physical harm?”
“He said if I kept acting stupid, somebody would teach me how expensive stupidity was.”
Ramirez wrote it down.
“Anything else?”
“He said family makes people pay faster.”
Helen felt the words enter the room like smoke.
Robert leaned toward Dylan.
“And you still stayed here.”
Dylan’s face crumpled.
“I didn’t have anywhere else.”
“You had me.”
“I didn’t think you wanted me.”
Robert’s anger faltered.
Dylan looked at his father.
“You left, remember?”
The sentence was quiet.
That made it harder.
Robert stared at him.
“I remember.”
“I called you for money because money was easier.”
“Easier than what?”
“Calling you because I was scared.”
Robert looked away.
Helen watched both of them.
For years she had believed she stood between Dylan and Robert because someone had to prevent their collisions.
Now she wondered whether standing between them had also prevented certain truths from reaching either side.
Officer Ramirez’s radio crackled again.
She listened.
Then looked at Dylan.
“We need you to come to the station.”
He stiffened.
“Am I arrested?”
“Not at this moment.”
“At this moment?”
“You’ve given information connected to an extortion investigation. We need a formal statement. Separately, your mother’s report regarding the assault and identity theft needs to be documented.”
Dylan looked at Helen.
“Are you pressing charges?”
The question was raw.
Helen took a long breath.
“I’m telling the truth.”
“That’s not what I asked.”
“It is the only answer I can give you.”
Dylan’s face tightened.
“If they arrest me—”
“That will be because of what you did.”
He recoiled slightly.
Helen hated saying it.
She hated not saying it more.
“You told me you were scared because after you hit me, you felt nothing.”
Dylan nodded, tears forming again.
“Then don’t ask me to help you become numb to this too.”
He stared at her.
Robert lowered his eyes.
Helen continued.
“If consequences come, you face them awake.”
Dylan’s breath shook.
“And if I go to jail?”
Helen did not pretend the possibility was meaningless.
“I will still be your mother.”
His face crumpled.
“But I won’t lie to keep you out.”
He cried openly then.
Not loudly.
No performance.
His chin lowered to his chest while tears fell onto his hands.
Officer Ramirez gave him a moment.
Then said, “You should get shoes and identification.”
Dylan nodded.
He stood.
Helen watched him move toward the stairs.
At the first step, he stopped.
“Mom.”
She looked at him.
“I’m going to tell them everything.”
Helen said nothing.
Dylan added, “Even the things you don’t know.”
A new fear entered her.
“What things?”
He shook his head.
“I need to say it once.”
“Say what?”
He looked at Robert.
Then at Helen.
“I wasn’t only gambling.”
The staircase creaked beneath his foot.
Robert stood.
“What else?”
Dylan did not answer.
He went upstairs.
Helen stared after him.
Officer Ramirez closed her notebook.
“What did he mean by that?”
Helen looked toward the ceiling.
“I don’t know.”
This time the words were true.
And for the first time all morning, Helen wished they were not.
Click here to continue reading: PART 7: At the Police Station, Dylan Revealed the Secret Behind His Missing Money and Forced Robert to Face a Failure He Had Never Seen
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